its been while ever since i posted.
its 4.21 hmm. what should i say about. after a long term break.
basically, very much of playing warcraft III until late night and wake up in the afternoon and continue AND THIS HAS TO STOP.but still can't. Kenneth's bday is coming. and eugene too. And holiday's ending. what a bummer. and as the organizer. i still.. have no ideas of how to help them make a special one. what a bummer.thinking of ideas shouldn't be a problem. but.. argh. its tough. cause all my ideas are superficial. like something ugh. go on a group cycling that we never did before because were all lazy bum couldn't wake up in the morning. or canoing( if i got that spelling right). i was thinking of how about having it at settler's cafe. and still not everyone gets to exchange. argh. the pain. the traditional BBQ is plain stupid. having chalet its like having a burden. Every ideas seems to be wrong. its empty.. i cant think of anything that will brings life into this fallen class , 2i. and double bad news. which is Siew yun and lin yun's bday coming soon too ARGH. and everyone seem to be. yea. lotsa patchwork to do.so now what i need now is a good plan to bring everyone back together. and of course make that day a special day to remember. worm why not you organize :D. and the JC guys' having trouble. june is the break for them to nerd. and i dont wish to trouble them . hmm. alvin you got to think of something. time is running out. its easier said then done. so think. alright enough of randomness. and sleep. hopefully i can get some impressive ideas tommorow then.
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guess im gonna blog something happened today.
yes, being forgetful leaving keys IN THE house was the bad day. especially whens NOBODY is at home AND NOBODY to ask for help for except for my brother maybe.well, his working and HIS going to be back at 7 HOPEFULLY so he could give me the SPARE key so I can go into the house and get everything done.
meanwhile i went down play with my flag cat( i term her flag cat cause she is always loiters around my flag. she is kinda warm today i should say,
when i first met her she kinda lick my leg( yes i wore slippers from that day onwards I NEVER WEAR SLIPPERS anymore) today, i didnt brought her any food, which is kinda sad of me. cause everythings at home. sorry oreo, thats her name given by my school bus friend haha. ShTeo
well i met her , she stretched herself i guess thats her greeting method i suppose.
as i claps she went towards my direction. and went around my legs circling. And today she started doing something weird.
she actually did this to my amaze
isnt she cute haha. and thats not it. she did something this left a mark at my leg by scratching at my leg.( maybe i done something wrong)and started licking my leg. haha some might felt eww, but its ok. i treat it as a form of showing care to me then.
then came 2 indian kids from my flag ( no offence) she started running after seeing the kid whom tried to touch her. i followed oreo afterwards. she hid at the staircase, and the indian kid walked away with her sister.
apart of oreo. before that i went out ( WHICH IS FINALLY?) and got my psp done. yeap its done now ready to play.
well i guess thats about it, back to sleeping session again to tune my bio clock (:
with sincere,alvin
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yea. when further thoughts deep down my mind.idling for a few minutes, then i decide to type what i'm thinking now, actually its practically blank.
first i took a blank piece of paper. i started thinking, is it true that we were once like this? then i referred to the psychology textbook for reference, and came back here typing away. why am i wasting time thinking about this ok skip that that.
then i started staring blankly my ceiling looking at the lightings i had, i saw images of me young, doing foolish things such as vandalizing and such it just like like yesterday.
what i see now, right now studying as a Republican.
i felt somehow empty in somehow and somehow 'motivationless' all the work hard study hard for greater future thing its just not there anymore.because maybe i just see no light in what im doing now. this awfully slam me down to abyss, I JUST WASTED 1 SEMESTER just pops in my face.
take me back to my logical thinking, statistics , culture sense and cognitive processes.
its going to be a new semester, and im still ready to give in all i got despite the fact,'FAG' that i feel pointless in doing all this.
is this suppose to be all student's mindset. just to study for test. get grades, after school meet for soccer. or is it just me.to think about it, whats your motivation for school then. is it blur like smokes on the water?
it should be the time to wake up and take this into a serious consideration, are you 'Enlightened?'
you know the answer for yourself.
series of unlogical flow of paragaphing pardon me. your sincerely,alvin
and alvin will be having a super long hour sleeping session to tune his bio-clock back to normal again.
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im back.. i was unable to get some sleep.. and yea i know i didnt blog for quite a while cause of the google thing..
i was thinking something deep, was i filial,am i fit to call myself a son of others or am i even fit to call my dad, dad?or mom, mom?.
i could recall vividly, that time it was during primary sch, my family was having a financial crisis, my dad went bankcrupt. because of some family disputes over the business.my dad put on a fake smile and say everything was ok.during that time i had a report card of red marks. failure was all over the report card. i was embarassed. when i was in the lift, i heard this shocking news it was my grandfather, he died.
its a tripple blow, or rather 2 blows first.cause i didnt show him the report card. cause its really sucky, i was ashamed.
well my grandfather was a good man, he taught me to be straight.or im crooked now. if without him ill lose in this paralex word of chaos without knowing wheres my aims are.it was him that made me woke up from being a rascal in the house. or should i say, a better attitude guy,if not ill be arrogant as an ass speaking shiat out of this crap.
during the wake, i was with my group of cousins, they attended the wake and stayed at my house for the 7 days. my aunt told me, my grandfather doted me the most, and also worried about me the most cause i was the black sheep(lousiest in study, attitude all those,) moral values and all those, which caused me semi awake. back to my cousin thing, we shared alot, and we all agreed that my grandfather was a good man, he brought union in this family,(except that bankcruptsy incident) he was the reason why are we cousins so united.
i should say i have the best set of cousins,grandfather, parents,friends.relatives. they refined me to be a better person.
i felt myself as a failure both a loser.as i done myself wrong,i didnt let my grandfather go in peace. which made what i am today. im very sure he is in heaven, blessing me as life is really smooth these years, no major crisis i should say. and results are getting better. but could be better.
if without my grandfather, what would be me today. a school dropout.? or some no life kid hanging outside home hoping for his death. or even gangs?
if without my parents, will i even live some comfortably? will i even to gradulate from secondary school?
if without my relatives and cousins, who is there to give me support, who is there to show me life, who im gonna persue to beat the target( which is impossible to)
if without my friends( or should i say the friends i know), will i be able to know whats life,will i be who i am today,or someone you might detest.
if you think your life sucks, think again. without the people around you will it be suckier? or even worse to the extreme.
thats one of the reason why am i such an optimistic person despite the changes in my life, from fallen sand to quicksand and thus able to walk on land straight.
so many thoughts to think, to think of your parents provide you, an i always yearn for more. is thats what resulted me today. this stage in life causing my parents working to death. they should be enjoying life rather than feeding me .
10 years from now, im not going to smoke, drink im going to be filial to my parents and loyal to my friends. in repay of what they have done. so my living motto now is live and NOT forget.
haha. suddenly able to typed so much crap. sorry for making you all read these junks. its just a random thought in my mind of i couldnt sleep. even though i shouldnt cry, and i did.
if you think this is really junk please dont mind, cause its just a thought in my mind. pardon me i really need to type it out. (: your sincerely, alvin
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whoa that was a long break =)
enough of cooking crap lol =p tired of it.
so proud of myself for doing nothing!practically nothing lol. oh yes.
everyones busy maybe cause its starting of the year. and yea please do take care of your healths and dont overwork yourselves and myself dont overplay that is lol
to gernaine
i didnt had inspiration to do another calendar i apologize for that. i still owe you 3 promises lol. which is writing you a poetry, writing 2x length and uhm a calandar.
hmm i think im gonna fulfil 1 of them now if you are reading that is. even tho you are a busy person =) wokay. ill write before i lost my train of thoughts pardon. me
To Gernaine
It was your voice whom i heard more than i see,
your words whom i see more than i heard.
Tho I cant see you, nor able to listen to you.
i was able to feel your presence.
You was someone whom i can trust,
someone whom ill cast my worries away.
it was your gentle voice that was here to say.
The hopes of early years.
The voices which are silent there
Would bid thee clear thy brow
We have been sad together.
Oh, what shall part us now?
oh my series of randomness lol
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series of randomness lol
okay its time to blog after long hours of sleeping.First i wish to rant about the doctor's god damn way of stoping people from having internal bleeding. WHOA? I HATE HIM FOR PUTING THAT THING INTO MY EAR LOL THANKS TO HIM I CRAWL BACK HOME AND SLEPT EXACTLY FOR 32 hours.well not exactly most of the time thinking about pain and agony and stuffs.i wasnt able to open one of my eyes due to balance issues.during the 32 hours i had dreamt of many things, many things i encountered, i lost, i had, i wished but all go blink most left with whom i encountered over these years summrized into this 32 hours? cool huh. (yeap must be no life) back to mindless bleeding, and i asked him. why did he gave me eye drops instead of eardrops. CAUSE eye drops can be used as ear( mainly cleansing purpose) but cant the other way round because eyes are more sensitive that is( another learning point from you doc but i still hate you) ok then i woke up. i was hungry, and was weak and was thristy and was helpless but what to do yes i love the invention of the coordless phone i managed to crawled and use my coordless and called for reinforcement Thanks bro. lucky you didnt went lol. yes my ear is still bleeding now which is friday which is the thirday and the doctor said he is gonna take that thing out for me or nobody is going to. and guess what. today that stupid thing causing my pain c ame out by itself? ( i think some maggots hates them thats why threw it out lol)and yes that things has alot of blood and wax ( sounds gross but yea what do ya expect for an internal bleeding guy) ok enuff of this ranting cause later im going back to that doctor.. lol but anyway. so many Take care of myself. i better do take care of myself. Yes drink more water ( yes i know lol) yes drinking water is good guys drink more!lol quote from Siewyun DRINK MORE WATER! ok start the drink more water campaign and chinese new year is comming but im not looking forward for it. but anyhow everyone drink more and collect more ang baos dont fall sick or else no ang baos =(
oh yea cooking lesson?
Alvin Can Cook:
the italic denotes recently learnt from my shifu my uncle
Western
Beef steak (hell im good lol)
Salad ( who doesnt)
Roast Chicken( ya improvised version)
Grilled Lamp ( even tho i hate but still learn)
CAKES( chocolate, Royal Cheese, fruit cakes)
APPLE PIES LOL ( well healthy ones made with real apples)
Chinx
stir fry tasty veggie ( even tho i dont like veggie but however i liked this one ambigiousy but yea)
special horfan ( special cause with western touch lol)
i dont know what is it called by its some yam paste thingy
hainanese chicken rice(problem is i dont know how to cut it lol)
Japanese
Tori KatsuDon ( well nicer name for fried chicken rice but japanese touch)
Curry KatsuDon ( i know japanese curry.lol well learnt from genki sushi tho lol)
Chawanmushi( steam egg, yea also picked from genki)
still learning this temaki
indian
NONE IM RACIST lol naw jkjk
learnt so many for what? of course MY DINNER LOL nobody cook everyday eat mac also no pt and kitchen so clean why not make use of my kitchen and kill some time *stabs time . die die die
er ok ay where was i. =p okay i sound old and ugh yea lol
and no NO APPLE PIE BAKING SERVICES nonononono >< takes long time special occasion maybe but anyhows happpy chinese new year!! and holidays =)
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ever since a long time, i didnt blog quite a while.Well im in school now, first day of the week(holiday mood as usual) well, at least my attitude towards studying has changed drastically mainly cause of one person. haha well,i no longer takes education for granted, Nerd is the key ( well not that nerd ) maybe. thanks gernaine. next, and ya. RP open house. very very long time i didnt write a poem already. should i be thinking of one? lol.
Secondly, thank you Eugene tan Thanks alot for your help.
Thirdly, been learning hard in culinary lol ( yeap western one ) for 2 reasons. first which is to cook myself better food lol , second would be cooking for my mate next time =P.
hmm.. many thoughts been going over my head. death came across once haha, and many absurd stuffs came across too, thats why have to keep me mind occupied by learning culinary.( sounds sissy haha but its fun!)
well i think this bridge between you and me has broken. its time for me to mend this bridge by updating more often.
i dream. i tried and i had fallen
lost in the darkness,hoping for a sign.
death is only silence
cant you hear my scream.
but one thing is for sure,
that is you will always be in my heart.
i find you somewhere,
keep on trying.
until the day im dead.
i just need to know,
whatever that has happened.
whatever truth free my soul.
wherever you are,
i wont stop searching.
lost in the darkness,
trying to find my way home.
living in agony
cause i just cant live alone
where you are??
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ever since a long time, i didnt blog quite a while.Well im in school now, first day of the week(holiday mood as usual) well, at least my attitude towards studying has changed drastically mainly cause of one person. haha well,i no longer takes education for granted, Nerd is the key ( well not that nerd ) maybe. thanks gernaine. next, and ya. RP open house. very very long time i didnt write a poem already. should i be thinking of one? lol.
Secondly, thank you Eugene tan Thanks alot for your help.
Thirdly, been learning hard in culinary lol ( yeap western one ) for 2 reasons. first which is to cook myself better food lol , second would be cooking for my mate next time =P.
hmm.. many thoughts been going over my head. death came across once haha, and many absurd stuffs came across too, thats why have to keep me mind occupied by learning culinary.( sounds sissy haha but its fun!)
well i think this bridge between you and me has broken. its time for me to mend this bridge by updating more often.
i dream. i tried and i had fallen
lost in the darkness,hoping for a sign.
death is only silence
cant you hear my scream.
but one thing is for sure,
that is you will always be in my heart.
i find you somewhere,
keep on trying.
until the day im dead.
i just need to know,
whatever that has happened.
whatever truth free my soul.
wherever you are,
i wont stop searching.
lost in the darkness,
trying to find my way home.
living in agony
cause i just cant live alone
where you are??
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