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ITs been while.

2007-06-08T13:21:00.001-07:00

its been while ever since i posted.
its 4.21 hmm. what should i say about. after a long term break.
basically, very much of playing warcraft III until late night and wake up in the afternoon and continue AND THIS HAS TO STOP.but still can't. Kenneth's bday is coming. and eugene too. And holiday's ending. what a bummer. and as the organizer. i still.. have no ideas of how to help them make a special one. what a bummer.thinking of ideas shouldn't be a problem. but.. argh. its tough. cause all my ideas are superficial. like something ugh. go on a group cycling that we never did before because were all lazy bum couldn't wake up in the morning. or canoing( if i got that spelling right). i was thinking of how about having it at settler's cafe. and still not everyone gets to exchange. argh. the pain. the traditional BBQ is plain stupid. having chalet its like having a burden. Every ideas seems to be wrong. its empty.. i cant think of anything that will brings life into this fallen class , 2i. and double bad news. which is Siew yun and lin yun's bday coming soon too ARGH. and everyone seem to be. yea. lotsa patchwork to do.so now what i need now is a good plan to bring everyone back together. and of course make that day a special day to remember. worm why not you organize :D. and the JC guys' having trouble. june is the break for them to nerd. and i dont wish to trouble them . hmm. alvin you got to think of something. time is running out. its easier said then done. so think. alright enough of randomness. and sleep. hopefully i can get some impressive ideas tommorow then.

today!

2007-03-28T05:37:00.000-07:00

guess im gonna blog something happened today.
yes, being forgetful leaving keys IN THE house was the bad day. especially whens NOBODY is at home AND NOBODY to ask for help for except for my brother maybe.well, his working and HIS going to be back at 7 HOPEFULLY so he could give me the SPARE key so I can go into the house and get everything done.
meanwhile i went down play with my flag cat( i term her flag cat cause she is always loiters around my flag. she is kinda warm today i should say,
when i first met her she kinda lick my leg( yes i wore slippers from that day onwards I NEVER WEAR SLIPPERS anymore) today, i didnt brought her any food, which is kinda sad of me. cause everythings at home. sorry oreo, thats her name given by my school bus friend haha. ShTeo
well i met her , she stretched herself i guess thats her greeting method i suppose.
as i claps she went towards my direction. and went around my legs circling. And today she started doing something weird.
she actually did this to my amaze
isnt she cute haha. and thats not it. she did something this left a mark at my leg by scratching at my leg.( maybe i done something wrong)
and started licking my leg. haha some might felt eww, but its ok. i treat it as a form of showing care to me then.

then came 2 indian kids from my flag ( no offence) she started running after seeing the kid whom tried to touch her. i followed oreo afterwards. she hid at the staircase, and the indian kid walked away with her sister.

apart of oreo. before that i went out ( WHICH IS FINALLY?) and got my psp done. yeap its done now ready to play.

well i guess thats about it, back to sleeping session again to tune my bio clock (:

with sincere,alvin

potato

2007-03-27T13:56:00.000-07:00

yea. when further thoughts deep down my mind.idling for a few minutes, then i decide to type what i'm thinking now, actually its practically blank.
first i took a blank piece of paper. i started thinking, is it true that we were once like this? then i referred to the psychology textbook for reference, and came back here typing away. why am i wasting time thinking about this ok skip that that.

then i started staring blankly my ceiling looking at the lightings i had, i saw images of me young, doing foolish things such as vandalizing and such it just like like yesterday.

what i see now, right now studying as a Republican.
i felt somehow empty in somehow and somehow 'motivationless' all the work hard study hard for greater future thing its just not there anymore.because maybe i just see no light in what im doing now. this awfully slam me down to abyss, I JUST WASTED 1 SEMESTER just pops in my face.

take me back to my logical thinking, statistics , culture sense and cognitive processes.
its going to be a new semester, and im still ready to give in all i got despite the fact,'FAG' that i feel pointless in doing all this.

is this suppose to be all student's mindset. just to study for test. get grades, after school meet for soccer. or is it just me.to think about it, whats your motivation for school then. is it blur like smokes on the water?

it should be the time to wake up and take this into a serious consideration, are you 'Enlightened?'
you know the answer for yourself.

series of unlogical flow of paragaphing pardon me. your sincerely,alvin

and alvin will be having a super long hour sleeping session to tune his bio-clock back to normal again.

im finally back

2007-03-26T13:42:00.000-07:00

im back.. i was unable to get some sleep.. and yea i know i didnt blog for quite a while cause of the google thing..
i was thinking something deep, was i filial,am i fit to call myself a son of others or am i even fit to call my dad, dad?or mom, mom?.
i could recall vividly, that time it was during primary sch, my family was having a financial crisis, my dad went bankcrupt. because of some family disputes over the business.my dad put on a fake smile and say everything was ok.during that time i had a report card of red marks. failure was all over the report card. i was embarassed. when i was in the lift, i heard this shocking news it was my grandfather, he died.
its a tripple blow, or rather 2 blows first.cause i didnt show him the report card. cause its really sucky, i was ashamed.
well my grandfather was a good man, he taught me to be straight.or im crooked now. if without him ill lose in this paralex word of chaos without knowing wheres my aims are.it was him that made me woke up from being a rascal in the house. or should i say, a better attitude guy,if not ill be arrogant as an ass speaking shiat out of this crap.
during the wake, i was with my group of cousins, they attended the wake and stayed at my house for the 7 days. my aunt told me, my grandfather doted me the most, and also worried about me the most cause i was the black sheep(lousiest in study, attitude all those,) moral values and all those, which caused me semi awake. back to my cousin thing, we shared alot, and we all agreed that my grandfather was a good man, he brought union in this family,(except that bankcruptsy incident) he was the reason why are we cousins so united.
i should say i have the best set of cousins,grandfather, parents,friends.relatives. they refined me to be a better person.
i felt myself as a failure both a loser.as i done myself wrong,i didnt let my grandfather go in peace. which made what i am today. im very sure he is in heaven, blessing me as life is really smooth these years, no major crisis i should say. and results are getting better. but could be better.

if without my grandfather, what would be me today. a school dropout.? or some no life kid hanging outside home hoping for his death. or even gangs?

if without my parents, will i even live some comfortably? will i even to gradulate from secondary school?

if without my relatives and cousins, who is there to give me support, who is there to show me life, who im gonna persue to beat the target( which is impossible to)

if without my friends( or should i say the friends i know), will i be able to know whats life,will i be who i am today,or someone you might detest.

if you think your life sucks, think again. without the people around you will it be suckier? or even worse to the extreme.
thats one of the reason why am i such an optimistic person despite the changes in my life, from fallen sand to quicksand and thus able to walk on land straight.

so many thoughts to think, to think of your parents provide you, an i always yearn for more. is thats what resulted me today. this stage in life causing my parents working to death. they should be enjoying life rather than feeding me .

10 years from now, im not going to smoke, drink im going to be filial to my parents and loyal to my friends. in repay of what they have done. so my living motto now is live and NOT forget.

haha. suddenly able to typed so much crap. sorry for making you all read these junks. its just a random thought in my mind of i couldnt sleep. even though i shouldnt cry, and i did.
if you think this is really junk please dont mind, cause its just a thought in my mind. pardon me i really need to type it out. (: your sincerely, alvin

wish to tell you that i

2007-01-21T08:27:00.000-08:00

whoa that was a long break =)
enough of cooking crap lol =p tired of it.
so proud of myself for doing nothing!practically nothing lol. oh yes.
everyones busy maybe cause its starting of the year. and yea please do take care of your healths and dont overwork yourselves and myself dont overplay that is lol
to gernaine
i didnt had inspiration to do another calendar i apologize for that. i still owe you 3 promises lol. which is writing you a poetry, writing 2x length and uhm a calandar.
hmm i think im gonna fulfil 1 of them now if you are reading that is. even tho you are a busy person =) wokay. ill write before i lost my train of thoughts pardon. me

To Gernaine
It was your voice whom i heard more than i see,
your words whom i see more than i heard.
Tho I cant see you, nor able to listen to you.
i was able to feel your presence.
You was someone whom i can trust,
someone whom ill cast my worries away.
it was your gentle voice that was here to say.
The hopes of early years.
The voices which are silent there
Would bid thee clear thy brow
We have been sad together.
Oh, what shall part us now?

oh my series of randomness lol

its aaaa friday

2007-01-19T11:32:00.000-08:00

series of randomness lol
okay its time to blog after long hours of sleeping.First i wish to rant about the doctor's god damn way of stoping people from having internal bleeding. WHOA? I HATE HIM FOR PUTING THAT THING INTO MY EAR LOL THANKS TO HIM I CRAWL BACK HOME AND SLEPT EXACTLY FOR 32 hours.well not exactly most of the time thinking about pain and agony and stuffs.i wasnt able to open one of my eyes due to balance issues.during the 32 hours i had dreamt of many things, many things i encountered, i lost, i had, i wished but all go blink most left with whom i encountered over these years summrized into this 32 hours? cool huh. (yeap must be no life) back to mindless bleeding, and i asked him. why did he gave me eye drops instead of eardrops. CAUSE eye drops can be used as ear( mainly cleansing purpose) but cant the other way round because eyes are more sensitive that is( another learning point from you doc but i still hate you) ok then i woke up. i was hungry, and was weak and was thristy and was helpless but what to do yes i love the invention of the coordless phone i managed to crawled and use my coordless and called for reinforcement Thanks bro. lucky you didnt went lol. yes my ear is still bleeding now which is friday which is the thirday and the doctor said he is gonna take that thing out for me or nobody is going to. and guess what. today that stupid thing causing my pain c ame out by itself? ( i think some maggots hates them thats why threw it out lol)and yes that things has alot of blood and wax ( sounds gross but yea what do ya expect for an internal bleeding guy) ok enuff of this ranting cause later im going back to that doctor.. lol but anyway. so many Take care of myself. i better do take care of myself. Yes drink more water ( yes i know lol) yes drinking water is good guys drink more!lol quote from Siewyun DRINK MORE WATER! ok start the drink more water campaign and chinese new year is comming but im not looking forward for it. but anyhow everyone drink more and collect more ang baos dont fall sick or else no ang baos =(

oh yea cooking lesson?
Alvin Can Cook:
the italic denotes recently learnt from my shifu my uncle
Western
Beef steak (hell im good lol)
Salad ( who doesnt)
Roast Chicken( ya improvised version)
Grilled Lamp ( even tho i hate but still learn)
CAKES( chocolate, Royal Cheese, fruit cakes)
APPLE PIES LOL ( well healthy ones made with real apples)
Chinx
stir fry tasty veggie ( even tho i dont like veggie but however i liked this one ambigiousy but yea)
special horfan ( special cause with western touch lol)
i dont know what is it called by its some yam paste thingy
hainanese chicken rice(problem is i dont know how to cut it lol)
Japanese
Tori KatsuDon ( well nicer name for fried chicken rice but japanese touch)
Curry KatsuDon ( i know japanese curry.lol well learnt from genki sushi tho lol)
Chawanmushi( steam egg, yea also picked from genki)
still learning this temaki
indian
NONE IM RACIST lol naw jkjk

learnt so many for what? of course MY DINNER LOL nobody cook everyday eat mac also no pt and kitchen so clean why not make use of my kitchen and kill some time *stabs time . die die die
er ok ay where was i. =p okay i sound old and ugh yea lol
and no NO APPLE PIE BAKING SERVICES nonononono >< takes long time special occasion maybe but anyhows happpy chinese new year!! and holidays =)

8th days after new year

2007-01-07T16:16:00.001-08:00

ever since a long time, i didnt blog quite a while.Well im in school now, first day of the week(holiday mood as usual) well, at least my attitude towards studying has changed drastically mainly cause of one person. haha well,i no longer takes education for granted, Nerd is the key ( well not that nerd ) maybe. thanks gernaine. next, and ya. RP open house. very very long time i didnt write a poem already. should i be thinking of one? lol.
Secondly, thank you Eugene tan Thanks alot for your help.
Thirdly, been learning hard in culinary lol ( yeap western one ) for 2 reasons. first which is to cook myself better food lol , second would be cooking for my mate next time =P.
hmm.. many thoughts been going over my head. death came across once haha, and many absurd stuffs came across too, thats why have to keep me mind occupied by learning culinary.( sounds sissy haha but its fun!)
well i think this bridge between you and me has broken. its time for me to mend this bridge by updating more often.

i dream. i tried and i had fallen

lost in the darkness,
hoping for a sign.
death is only silence
cant you hear my scream.
but one thing is for sure,
that is you will always be in my heart.
i find you somewhere,
keep on trying.
until the day im dead.
i just need to know,
whatever that has happened.
whatever truth free my soul.
wherever you are,
i wont stop searching.
lost in the darkness,
trying to find my way home.
living in agony
cause i just cant live alone
where you are??

8th days after new year

2007-01-07T16:16:00.000-08:00

i dream. i tried and i had fallen

its time to update lol

2006-12-23T19:59:00.000-08:00

oh okay =) its time to update and yea. so many things have yet to be done. so little time. and the calander hasnt been up. as im not that good at photoshop so i gotton some help. hope that eugene can help me XD lol and hmm. i think its about time to write some poetry christmas. . . lol nothing to do. and made a penpal. i shall name that person as ? thanks ? for being such a good penpal i enjoy writing to you. heh. so as to brush up my pen skills and reasoning ability heh thank you. life wasnt as great before after meeting you. i hereby thank you=) will do updates after 30th dec. lala tata

alvin's weird today

2006-12-12T05:50:00.000-08:00

okay. today i overslept. lol i was like by 30 mins. sorry. suppose to be there by 3. but woke up at 3 lol sorry abt that. no alarm clock and human alarm clock at home o_o + play game until today 8am srry about that lol o_o. ok what we do today. we went to city hall ahh. and took liu li min shirt. and i being a part time photographer today.lol and
note! the following pictures below are real but the discriptions are to add the effects lol so i decide to make into a documentary style as im bored okay here goes:

first we arrived the legendary place call the Hasu town of valesti which is famous by these laterns of true light it has magical powers tho lol for eg
the purple one: its for happiness
the blue one: is for spirit
the green one: is for money
the red one: is for health
sounds crap but yea. they all combine to form power ranger team o_o lol jkjk kinda beauty sight of the valesti town signature.

then we were brought up to the top of the tower by the HOVERING LIFT oh my god i must say. that their lift is so as fast as.. our normal lift! i pity the man working at the hovering lift because he has to blow the lift upwards lol everday ( ok this is crap but if you see this picture what else you can think of)

next inside the the tower. they got this latest technology of warping place to any part of the tower its a really cool system you must see. it kinda depicts the rigid lifestyle of the modern man now

yea and heres the path way during the warping process. lol

kinda like a wooden path but its kinda sweet tho.lol then we arrive to our check point.

The Frozen River of Wishing Well.it is said that if you are able to toss the coin into the frozen river of wishing well your wish will come true. i tried and i lost my quater the river ate it @#^%@#^ lolok anyway lets show the picture

nice eh..? then after that i took a warp home via the star portal.. lol

THEN OUR TOWN GOT ATTACKED BY A BUNCH OF ALIEN T.T.. and i took the last shot of our town lol

end. lol ok. thats all for today =)

2nd day of holiday

2006-12-06T20:17:00.000-08:00

yeap today is the 2nd day of holiday. series of activities lining up.. yeap and i broke my own promise yesterday by touching warcraft 3 -_- i guess i have to . repent on my sins. lol.
man and i love this Hongkey song after i listened straight away
愛是最大權利 sang by pingpung lol yea but its nice though
可不可與你放膽嬉戲
忘掉日與夜那些限期
不管身邊幾多無聊道理
手拖手與你演齣好戲
遊行直到夜晚多淒美
爭取這一次走幾千百里
沿途留心掌心的知覺也著緊
我認我認我愛得太過份
人群漸近想改寫你我命运
任天塌下亦前行哪怕你說我天真
*憑我徹底的勇氣愛是最大權利
不理場面不偉大我共你始終同遊生死
還有哪一種結尾花光一切在乎你沒有想過太多
我只需要你*路到盡頭也置之不理寧願為愛著你不捨棄
爭取多一次我身邊有你沿途祈祷始終一天我會望到
你是你是我的所有態度無從預告多曲折每斷路路中幾多的勸告
我怕我會聽不到憑我徹底的勇氣愛是最大權利不理場面不偉大
我共你始終同遊生死還有哪一種結尾花光一切別嫌棄若已想過太多
我只知愛你

but yea after look at the lyrics i giddy ah too much chinese can die LOL..
next
Love Guaranteed sang by stephy tang ( lol not stephanine tng LOL ok sorry)
since its all chinese hence i wont put.
NEXT i wanna kill those japanese who made this stupid game LOL 恋姫無双( basically 3 kingdoms BUT they did something really stupid LOL wait ill show you the wei wu shu dong country. wa lao they can go die.. lol

wa lao they can go die LOL mess my favourite chinese novel( and the only novel i read lol)
zzz but anyway this is an online game LOL O_O first the new journey to the west.. NOW THIS LOL o_O creative mind o_O and since when da qiao xiao qiao become sakura card captor o_O anyway just for a good laugh -__- ahh.. lol

holidays

2006-12-05T07:21:00.000-08:00

oh yea. holidays. areee comming. *coughs coughs* whoa.. been working hard aint i lol. ok stop puking my blog dont have any more place for you to puke.. 11 weeks just pass by so soon. any another 4 more lesson o_o bye bye w26p lol yea kinda fun thanks for being as a class for 11 weeks ( even tho lol im the blacksheep) hahaa
ok. a couple of task to be done:
1) a meaningful poetry
2) calander for LIULIMIN ( wedding yea ya deadline 30th dec)
3) go steamboat with ex2i
4)stop playing games ( THAT IS NOT POSSIBLE SO.. but anyway put for fun)
5)going xmas church musical
6)work on my project.( personal project)
so many things for 1 month=4weeks=28 days=672 hours=40320mins=2419200secs=241920000msecs.
so little time left o_________o
tmr then start la.. lol o______o
ok what else. poetry?
DONT WANT LA. today just start holiday. and btw.
i.
quit.
Wc3.
hahahah hard to believe i quit wc3 =-= this proves that my #4 goal is semi quater way done o_o lol
hope i successfully kicked the addiction lol. whoa im so able to quit this game lol o_o today's night particularly lonely. suddenly feel so empty. feel that im just a filler into this empty box today ok la i write poetry x) lol

the things i see
when i first stepped into this world of void,
am i suppose to speak?
or am i suppose to move?
can this world see what i do.? my actions? my movements?
the wind cries as i try to move
eventually i try to move.
it doesnt change what happens.
so why do pointless struggles.?
instead of doing pointless struggle,
why not start to plan how to live comfortably in the void
hehehe. pointless struggle only makes you uneasy. even though you succeed is it worth it?

o_O the end. CRAP lol

whoa =)

2006-11-30T02:21:00.000-08:00

=) finally can have a decent time to blog hmm todays RJ. haha Reflection journal for those whom dont know what is it. its suppose to reflect upon what you have learn and all the serious shit but today's topic is. too inspiring for me to do a honest point of view. HAHHA ok. here goes
What will what you have learnt in RP be useful to anything that you intend to do during the vacation? Please elaborate.
as you all know i wont work. i wont go out and play what do i do? stay at home play game so how am i gonna answer this question? LOL SO I decide.. to write it honestly lol.

Hmm.. most probably ill stay at home 'CHOING' GAME ( play games for long hours). what i learn in RP. Basically i can apply the PBL concept into the game itself. for example fighting a super strong boss in world of warcraft.basically doing the FMT alone is sufficient for me to find what is needed. for example. what kind of party i need to get ( for example the monster is a fire based. then i will get many offensive ice mages, or the monster hits hard, so i will get many warriors to act as 'tankers') and also what kind of 'buffs' to get for example fire resistance potion.using what i know.( which is what i have). what i dont know (which is the monster) and what i need to find out ( what is needed to kill the monster effectively).

how great Pretending to Be Learning RP system famous PBL system lol x)

and yes. my lapppy 'heavy' DIED BEFORE ME TODAY. some camcorder virus got into it. and heavy got so ill that it cant even start himself and i decide to bring heavy to IT help desk and he was cured UNTIL 4pm which is after lesson. and how was he cured? HE WAS REFORMATED AND NOW HE TOTALLY FORGOTTON ABOUT ME NOW T.T HEAVY FORGETS ABOUT HIS's owner.( yes even msn is gone Scruffles picture was in it . i guess i need to take another picture of scruffles again o well.) whole day without msn was a pain and i cant do research. LUCKILY TODAY DO VIDEO. lol today do lotsa of funny shit videos. apart from the mataphors. we include funny News report ( lol edna HAHAHA ) which is the mad man(Edwin) carrying 2 bamboo sticks chasing dom and i. and also the up comming movie : sian wars. (2 retarded man fighting for a sun.) ya and it end up why dont we make another son instead LOL. dumb i know.ps i was 1 of the retards lol

oh yea. today i was too tired and i slept on the train. guess what i saw after i woke up. i saw this man and these 3 people ( i suppose they are poly students) quarrelling LOL. i was like WTH am i dreaming but. its true. this man ranting for these people "HEY WTF ( yes what the @$%$ ) can you all kindly stand up and give space for those who are going in. @#%@#%@%@% so on and so forth. and those people are like ... showing unwilling expression. then that man called his "gang" lol squeeze those i presume poly students to the door way. AND I MEAN REALLY SQUEEZE HAHAHA until city hall i drop off.. poor guys. and i left the train. and i didnt catch up with those anymore too sleepy. .

im sleepy and sick now tata. happy reading. nice day.

Y!.

today

2006-11-22T03:41:00.000-08:00

i have never felt this before. after that day, i felt that i lost myself. my senses. my logical thinking ability. after i looking at the insect at the table. it has lost a wing( for whatever reasons).it is still struggling to fly, but it still falls down ( i didnt touch him).. dispite the numbers of tries, this tiny half wing fly still continues.
then i looked at myself,*shakes head* it has been how long.. i been living my life as an orphan without trying. im such a loser compared to this half winged thing.. this has came across my mind. if i were to attain the state of oblivion( state of being forgotton), will it be a big load off my mind x).

i just remembers how is being dead feels, and figures is just like being drown in the deep pool, everything just gone black. losing your ability to see. feel. and listen. and you just sit down there.. and wait and wait.. eternal vortax of time has pass as you dont even know how time passes.(which what i thinks)
alvin thinks too weird huh.. so fast about death..

and of course i slept too late and goes to sch with cap 18.60 (o.o wth. but also learnt alot from this mr taxi uncle about chinese literture stuffs). so its not totally 18.60 for the taxi ride and also knowledge transfer.

ah what else. yes. i saw someone i liked. hehehe. lets deem this person as Y .its so funny. just that one sight of her just.. enticed me with her innocent behavior. and that makes her beautiful. im like so totally crazy. la for a few days. then what happens.. should i call this luck or. fate or. what. then my msn suddenly pop with her contact. from there onwards, i knew her name. ok lets leave a little suspence and you all shouldnt be looking at this its just for me to write something out before i go boom.

poetry for today:
When all the songs are over
and all the words been said
The sun grows dim across the sky
and the world prepares for bed
I oft can take a moment nowto view the sky above
and whisper God a simple prayerto thank him for your love

hmm another boring ass day.

2006-11-21T02:39:00.000-08:00

hmm O lvl's has just ended, all the best. and its the time to enjoy yourself LOL MUHAHAH.and yea all of you has created a train jam at city hall . lol for god sake. and so yea.. another boring day lol. met scruffles whehehe he is soooo fun lol and took a picture of him that day. its at my laptop so ill upload it the next day. tmr's ut studying lol tata.

dark radiance

2006-11-17T03:34:00.000-08:00

Whoa XingWei this is gonna be so freaking hard. Theme :Dark Radiance.. here it goes if it sucks dont blame me HAHA. ok. ill begin.

Dark Radiance

The bright sun was extinguish'd,

and the stars

Did wander darkling in the eternal space,

Rayless, and pathless,

and the icy earth

Swung blind and blackened in the moonless air.

and man lost hope and passion,

When all thought were all gone,

There lies a relic that refuses to shine,

This relic was believed to be too powerful that the wielder's power will devoured into it.

There came the evil demon that was causing all the darkness, and took the relic.

The demon thought that it would be able to witstand the power and possess all power.

The relic ended leeching all the life forces of the demon.

the power of demon and the power of relic has became one.

the relic is called. the dark radiance.

todays RJ

2006-11-15T03:23:00.000-08:00

today's rj question is a killer. its <> its like damn it la i never write before poem about myself how am i gonna write it hahaha. stupid bala( thats HER NAME) yes and she is an indian and im a racist HAHAHA what do you think i like this teacher or not . ok . ill stop this crap and post today's RJ ( reflection journal if you dont know what it is)

First , I will write the poem out.

Walking in front unknowingly what’s ahead of my life,
Behaving like a shadow of my nemesis as guidelines of my life.
Confucius’s teachings have been part of my life.
If i were to describe my life as a box of chocolates.
Then my nemesis has taken most of the sweet flavored chocolates off my life.
What are left are mainly the coffee flavored ones.
Trying very hard to taste the sweet ones but to no avail.
Even if it’s slight impossible for now to eat to sweet ones,
Thy will not give up until thy get to taste the sweet chocolates.
Even if it takes my life, thy will still lay down my life for them.
I am still the king of me after all.Ok for the first line is basically as stated. Going through my life without knowing what is ahead of me just foolishly leading my life.
Second line, behaving like a shadow of my nemesis as the guidelines of my life basically a shadow follows what the object behaves and always inferior than the object itself basically I have to behave like my nemesis. For this case my nemesis is my brother. I had to ‘follow’ him in a sense as I have to study better than him which I can hardly to.

Confucius teachings has been part of my life. For this case confucious’s teachings has been used because there is always this person will affect my way of thinking in life like how Confucius believed to be a teacher that refines every man. For this case is my brother, always had ‘psycho’ me to work harder in terms of academically like how Confucius teaches his students about philosophies.

For the ‘if I were to describe my life as a box of chocolates,’ like how life is bitter and sweet. Then my brother has taken all the ‘sweet’ stuffs which is basically the expectation of my families towards my results. Basically I couldn’t beat my brother in terms of academically so I was treated differently in a sense. They favor him more and thus what is left is the coffee flavored ones ( coffee taste bitter hence what is left are those.) even though I tried to taste ( means I had tried very hard to study and gain their recognition I wasn’t able to get at least their agreement.)

Thy will not give up.( means I am still trying now ) thy shall lay down my life.( for this case life is describe as time. Hence even it takes all my time I will still continue to try)

I am still the king of me after all ( as even though I have been living in as if I’m like his shadows. I am still myself working hard to win him and this is me. And hence my life is not all about him and him and him)
End.
and yes i know it sucks lol yes i know as in the poem not the question. but what to do anyway. lol.

now im having trouble with my tummy . it says. feed me food.. and i couldnt go down and buy cause im lazy and.. my house's food rations has depleted . its time to stock up. lol and yea OPEN HOUSE WHeo0t bored. and.. let me think how can i use the Pretend to Be learning system to solve my tummy problem today ( PBL RP learning format ) haha by then i dead la. lol so i decide not to use the PBL rather than. practical solutions now o.o tata

2006-11-14T07:57:00.000-08:00

OK nato people no action talk only people now we are gonna talk and do the actions now
This friday. Xingwei can use your house? we are gonna use your house as meeting ground.
People please give your reply thru here.
Mail me if you have something on that day.
Eugene you on special reasons so you are exempted sat please send your card designs and card designs. thanks.
Friday people involved
James
XingWei
Wen Ming
Kenneth
Sk
Colin

Issues involve on that day
Class shirt
BBQ or Chalet
When?
What?
AND what to buy
Voting.
Selections
and of course no distractions which is also no games ( you35@#%@%eker)

Reply asap>
the project got delayed because of slow reaction me and R@#%@%ing RP lol.
REPLY SOON

Yenyin's poem

2006-11-13T05:08:00.000-08:00

Ok now awarding the longest tag award to............. YenYin lol. here is your prize. A poetry by alvin!

The silent voice arise from the moments.
shines your nature in this light.
You were the one who stood by stride.
Enduring the pain which one could last.
with true heart and balance mind.
Fun and loving is what we see,
pain and disorder is what you had.
and with a true heart guided by
what right, so that it will enhance
and protect each one
Let the gardens of Nature bind it
all who enter within one's will

so whats in your mind of thinking,
puzzles of life pieces that are seperated.
slowly mending them together to form 'You'
did i lost you? did i missed you?
its still a unknown until i fix the puzzles and time will tell.

colors

2006-11-12T02:18:00.000-08:00

Read something today and decide to write something out LOL.

the water reflects the images of your condensed mind
physics people lol come come ! tell me how water reflects the images of your condensed mind.
bored. so ill write one today.

walking in the world of extreme demands.
struggling for survival is everyone's trouble.
Besides this, the meaningless life has gone into depression.
many people turned to the shadows,
lost and never came back.
is it our fault to walk into shadows?
is it our only choice to walk into shadows?
it is not your fault nor you had a choice.
so are you just going to stand over there and do nothing about it.
why not take some time and look at the water.
look at yourself. reflect upon it.
let your meaning of life shines.
are things going to change? its not guaranteed.
but at least you made an effort in it. no regrets.
Even if shadows devours you.i will be here. to try and drag you out of shadows.
make a choice today. or never in future.lol

o.o

2006-11-11T03:43:00.000-08:00

before i lost my train of thoughts ill begin with the poetry today

Frequent questions we would ask ourselves.
If only i am able to turn back in time.
If only i put in more effort.
If only i took the initiative.
If only i have done my best.
If only. so many if onlys.

Why? suddenly pop with so many IF onlys. basically one word. Regret

every human with his/her regrets. Hence these inspires me to write this poem today

Unknown towards what is infront of us.
Looking back hesistant towards ourselves.
Rather than being hesistant,Why not start today.
Living in the life of eternal voltex of time is what we deem it for?
Looking forward is what we always say.But are we actually looking forward?
Questions to ask. Whether meaning of life is a mistake by start.
Answer to this is. It wasnt a mistake. But it is a mistake to regard life as a mistake
Why? why? and so many Whys?
Too many questions too little time.Why hesitant now? and start moving forward before
TIME runs away from you. I hereby give you some of my time to start thinking about this.
Whether to continue to hesitate or not. Its your choice.

You.

2006-11-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

ahaha After so long. Then I finally got inspiration to write something out of what i feel X.x woo ok here it goes AND DONT LAUGH AT ME ahaha.

The moment you captivated me, your image collides in my mind.
It seem just too real. or never recites.
Your image collides with my mind and decides the fate of my stride.
As times goes by and times go bye.
My mind twirls as it sees you nine.
Used to games and never offline and i saw you online.
Your images just consolidates and made me goes fine.
Seeing you sad makes me sigh.
watching you sigh makes me goes find(finding the problem)
Just to hope that one day you goes fine,
then that very day i will feel fine.
Dispite the fact that i am unable to,
I still hope that you would be fine.
Across the road , across the board.
i will be here all the time hoping that you would be fine.

its done. To you solely my friend that i hope you would be fine some day XD

senseless writing part 1

2006-10-31T03:44:00.000-08:00

ok. nothing happened in particular. lol but i have pondered over for some time. hmm. and think and think and i came up with this line
i. the slave of life. shackled into the misery of hard untold truth, will this be end of my tale?
ya basically i think that is about how i feel about life. im more to the slave than the owner of my life which i think that im being controlled rather than I do my own controlling over life.ya ya all the ' i cant go against nature' thing but why do i still i think in this way?now think back. what things you have done. are they done naturally? do you still think you are satisfied?if you say yes that means you are jerk lol jkjk.ya of course there are exceptional cases. like uh. copying homework which i think its the most common cases. ok talking so much about being slavery ( or should i say crap i think ill stop about this lol)
and ya. i didnt find writing was so much fun. lol why didnt i start to love writing when i was in primary 5? so i wont fail so much in english lol.
next i wish to talk about is. what valkyrie profile englightens me. ( yes i know its a game but it enlightens me)
1) it make me feel the importance of treasuring time (i have spent all my time on wasting on stoning i should really start reflecting everyday)
2) people as stated at the last post ( ok not things lol)
3) learn to look in many many many different points of views ( ok not just up down left right but also overview and religious view and stuffs)
4) value sleeping ( last time was game > sleep now is game+sleep = balance)
5) value my own strength ( which i think its a nusiance which is having a super long term memory)

Next which is my new class W26p
ya been with you all for quite some time. i feel that we are united in some ways AHAHA you all know.ya basically i just wanna say that thank you for being a wonderful class for making such a good enviroment to study in ( at least 22/23 of your all do)

Next to my old class W16p
ya everyone have their own stuffs but. alvin is still . im just here

Next Ex2i
Ya i know the bond is dimlishing. everyone is busy with their own things and also it wasnt a mistake to know you all at the start. so ill try even harder to pull the bonds ( ok .)

Myself
Ya stop making no link statements and randomazation statements lol and stop using filler words got god sake

Alvin is just here if you need to. alvin goes back to his world of psp once again

whee

2006-10-26T23:25:00.000-07:00

so fun. after viewing yun's blog then i decide to. do the test and turned out to be 75% true :O hehe

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver
You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's" Your Personality Type?

ya as usual lol tata

finall update

2006-10-26T03:53:00.000-07:00

whee. sorry didnt update. was working hard and playing hard ( of course more towards the play side but just to make it sounds equal haha)

Basically stuffs i can accomplished
1)Learn to understand to like stuffs that are not relevent to my course( STATS, ART AND MUSIC HAHAHA and many more)
2) completed my new PSP game Valkyrie profile for 2 weeks
3) learnt to appriciate things around me (esp. people like xyun heh lol and linyun and many more
4) managed to contact to Ms.Liu ( :O she is getting married yay~ lol so yea church wedding and alvins gonna be the flower boy ( NOT ) lol)
5) managed to extend my time of getting awake ( record was 3am now 3.45)
6) managed to not to think of pon tening sch ( this was my favourite pasttime in secondary sch)
7) learnt to know that $ is hard to earn
8) manage to recall which important person i know from first to last ( still in contact)
primary sch
Swee Huang ( primary sch bus friend opposite my house)
Irsyad ( my best friend / under my floor )
Cheng Hwee ( i used to bicker with him but eventually we become very good friends because we share same interest - proceed with yl)
Ying Liang ( as well GAMES ahaha we always hang out with cheng , irsyad basically we still in contact)
Secondary School
SiewYun ( yay my sister. lol amazingly we didnt talk for the first year after that we manage to talk and she became my consultant and sister)
Avanna ( hmm a game person. and always online msn and we talk alot a good friend)
LinYun ( what more can i say about turtle ;x lol she is the daughter of my sister :o AHH lol super friendly also)
XingWei ( from my primary sch but really know him in secondary sch game person)
Kenneth ( from my primary sch but really know him in secondary sch . ya and poor me 10 years lol)
Sweekhoon (ok.. this is long history. Red alert Runescape Gunbound Warcraft and now WORLD OF WARCRAFT basically game freak like me but smart ass gone into jc)
Eugene ( handsome asshole and also game person and also a target for us to make fun because he everytime tio suey job all the chairperson all the shit he incharge)
Wilson (super crapper radio class 95 non stop ahahahaha but really funny chap)
Colin (Runescape Gunbound Warcraft and now WORLD OF WARCRAFT game chap as me
a really smart lawyer to be)
James ( a die hard study geek lol jkjk but he really works hard which i have to put my hats off to)
Joey lim ( AHAHAHAHHA robato carlos ( if this is how it spellls) basically he taught me how to be crazy)
Zhe Wei ( he is really a good friend with some serious science jokes which i dont understand hahaha but he encourages me alot during my time at my aunt's place ya grace period lol)
Rp Sem1
Raymond ( basically a geek ok maybe not i always talk with him basically a guai kia la and stay at the east)
Douglas ( a real asshole lol maybe not but really a good friend with great charisma speaks really good ang mo and names real cool and really funny chap)
En Ning ( basketball sia lol always come up with funny shit like this (shit become tihs) haha which make me go crazy because i dono wth he is talking)
Sean ( aka Shard BOXER. great charisma too and very smart asshole hahah very fun too)
Aqilah ( AHAHAHA funny person same as her friend lol crazy one )
Siti ( old person LOL jkjkjk archery!! lol)
YenYin ( hmm. a very weird story i should say ahaha but met her out of blue a good friend i should say and always make people worry because MIAness) haha then she is gonna say why is my name up there again
and many more all i still need to type Sem2lol
Anti porky clan
-Dom ( leader smart ass a really smart one) - Mich ( leader evil)
- alvin ( which is me) Hannah ( lol she gave her the nick Meatball)
Shoonie ( ahaha evil) Jamie ( SHE IS EVEN MORE EVIL lol)
Edwin (funny ass joker) SuSu (she better pray hard or she is gonna drown herself into the pond)
Suriana ( ahaha she also dislikes her) Nuru ( ahaha she also joined our tribe because of that)
Edna ( Poor Fellow have to listen to her nagging ) lol Geok Min ( i think i.. dont know la hahah)
Gloria ( AHAHAHAHA . she just cant stand her) LiYan ( a person who always forgets to pray ahaha) Linda ( she just told her to sht up LOL) basically these are the people ahaha
ok sorry im freaking childish but yea ahahha

People i know from Clan Hscs
There are like many of them so ill just list the main ones.
taekov- (mark.. also know as bark. always call me vin OMG ok la bark very funny la. and know about like TPJC opposite my house and i always make fun of him lol)
frogbone(david ahaha funny shit name and also funny shit vid vid vid is what they call em)
chickenbrain( moses and gabriel ,2 people wth?lol i always got mix up la )
snoopy14 (yz, played with him most of the time about 584 games as stated in banlist. lol know him in tp and we talk alot la sort of a online best bnet friend and ya. quite a number of my friend in hscs and funny to hear about their funny stories lol)
Clan UNDA
Da.Blademaster ( chuck . haha im also kind of the founder too whee lol ok. he is the leader of underworld clan ( whoa) the map la lol a funny shit father, and tells me about his cruel life lol and tell me to enjoy while i still can )
BloodRaven ( AMANDA!! lol. a mother of 2 now.. just gave birth to a new son lol and taught me about elks lol and always make fun of me lol cause im young :( lol )
mainly those 2 person la lol both are adults married maybe not amanda lol she told me she sin haha!! lol learnt alot from these people

Kinda fun of listing these people and talking about them wheehehehehe i think that is about it hahaha XD

2006-10-08T03:12:00.000-07:00

Whoa this Haze is getting crazy huh... i think im gonna invent something to suck the haze into this device and stop it from hurting even more peope lol. this sounds stupid but i think im gonna do it for real to save you all from the evil haze. ok that sounds wrong. ok mid autumn was the day before yesterday. the haze kinda covered the moon. and i could actually smell the haze. i bet you all do to. the psi was like 143 by then . lol today is not any better tho. i kind of went out today and had fun with some friends boo lol and also played dota. for freaking 4 hours and the haze is making me giddy yea. and im lAZY i think im gonna go now xD ta

sick

2006-10-05T02:51:00.000-07:00

hmm. was coughing and eating chips at the same time . ok. i dont have anything to eat except chips. nobody's at home and nobody will be at home. the worst thing is that i couldnt even stand up,after 12. then i woke up and realised i sweat like hell. ok. went online saw. douglas yy and all the w26p and w16d and.. my sister yun!lol. but unfortunately. i was using my extended keyboard to type to them lol. *cough cough . ok what shall i have for dinner today. ok. ill make it pizza today. lol as my house dont have instant stuffs. and all those crap so i shall have pizza...
i realised i actually walking a step closer to death lol..* cough cough lol.ok sorry not in the mood to write anything today. henceforth. ill end this..
end.

2006-09-30T00:29:00.000-07:00

i think its time to update.

Basically.. i have been pondering this big question? do science really explains we are ourselves?
I study cells yea. after studying it i realised science doesnt answers our question. ok first ill talk briefly about cells first.As we know, no wait. ok cells die after 8 years ok? thats steroepting.. ok what i wish to talk about is cells in the brain. since cells die after a certain time right. replaced by the new ones. hmm? so are we still the same as 5 years ago? or are we just living by the memories of 5 years ago and this new cells is just mimicking it? so are we still ourselves??.. ok maybe thats too much haha.. then i asked my teacher thru msn. she said that we are not made up of only cells and spirit too ( is spirit in the science text book?) then i was like uhh. haha ok.. this concluded not everything can answered by science even tho people believed in it.

ok next post. (events)
this week. is a long week i supposed .beginning to know my classmates already. wooh. that is a good thing . and stuffs like that.. school. and i know of someone whom 3 days never go sch and unable to contact that caused me worried for 96 hours. ok not that serious. but that person's fine now (whew)

ok next post.(next delicated to my sister xyun)
lol i know you been busy but thank you for being such a caring person and that motivates me all the while. and you deserved to be missed XD i know you miss me too boo hahaha. and ill find a cure for your stoning disease ( lol) ok

ok next post.(delicated to douglas)
YES MAN WE ARE GONNA KICK A STORM out of RP.lol.. when are you free. i want do proposal one. we are going to make $$$ lol.ok lame but monday maths help me ok.

ok next post( delicated to bestie alicia)
i wonder if your cello string is ok already? ok lol dont be sad ok?

ok next post (delicated to yenyin)
i hope you have really overcome the barrier already and ya we will be behind you always boo..

ok next post.( delicated to ex2i)
WE NEED ANOTHER MEETING SOMEWHERE SAT OR SUN lol we need to do the final project proposal before november ok?

ok next post ( to myself)
bloody hell wake up ok.! nobody waits you if you continue to stand down there and do nothing about your grades you are going to lose to alot of people. ok thats lame haha

i guess thats about it. sorry no poems for today as im very tired . and please tag my miserable dead tag board

boring.

2006-09-25T05:04:00.000-07:00

today maths. and all my cells got dried up what do you think then hahhah. dont feel like blog today sorry. ttyglater( talk to you guys later) cha/

2nd day of sch

2006-09-23T00:29:00.000-07:00

sorry that i didnt blog about ytd. anyway, yesterday's topic is about cell membrane and how cholesterol benefits cell membrane. basically, its hard.. then luck i manage to desiphier what the heck wikipedia is try to say about polar shit hahaha and made it into a diagram. and douglas needed that. so i went to his class. when i stepped in. . i guess im suffering from some mental ailments or stuffs. then he asked me some questions. and mainly i can answer only the polar shit any why is the ci bonds like this. i was a little hold back when i was about to step out. but anyway i need to rush back and complete my ppt. so anyway. then went to eat malay rice with nabil with douglas afterwards and went to the library with them again. played cs until 7 then went home reach at 9 and talk crap with douglas. and many . ( ok thats totally crazy) anyway i came out with this poem kill myself and a random doodle i made from paint

A place call heaven

When i first step into that place,

i felt i was like in heaven

there is this particular angel dancing across my mind

there i go proceed with my mind tasking move

made a promise that ill get to know this angel

end up with tormenting my soul

gather all the courage i had to say this

i would be crazy if i didnt say this

Would you be the angel of my life?

i guess its a lil absurd saying this thing

but i couldnt think of any thing.

Life isnt just journey for me to walk alone

knocking my head. it feels something. deep thinking process.

i wish i would step into that piece of heaven again.

tata

LOL WHAT AM I THINKING but for god.~ i . am crazy teh :)

SCHOOL STARTS

2006-09-21T06:47:00.000-07:00

what a day to start school. holiday ended. i got posted into w26p. saw the class list and got bored cause 19 girls 4 guys including me god bless me. was hoping that the 4 guys at least play games but NUH all working dudes lol
met a few friends today
EDNA
SUSU
SUHUI and nuru( my pri sch friend)
those are in my team woo and also as well as other teams
MICH FARAH cheok hui and stella and others. if i fail to say please forgive me. my brain cant compute all the shit hahaha
anyway todays topic is really gay ME management Enterprise topic on recruting and manpower management LOL as usual rushed the ppt ended late then go home play game then edna talked to me about teh PPT and stuffs and i asked for other emails as well and blah blah blah.. oh ya. tmr is about Cholesterol(i cant spell) hmm read about it already.. its kinda ok. just hope tml will be easy then..
Geeks stuffs high density Cholesterol ( good ones) low density ( bad ones) it is used to help into build and maintain cell membranes.Cholesterol also aids in the manufacture of bile (which helps digest fats), Cholesterol is minimally soluble in water; it cannot dissolve and travel in the water-based bloodstream. resources: http://www.fao.org/docrep/V4700E/V4700E08.htm lol thats about it tmr i go my blog and see and copy paste

Re-genki sushi tmr

2006-09-18T21:12:00.000-07:00

lol due to hasty decision. tmr will be e day for the lunch at genki (2pm) outside genki . sorry for the inconvience caused .but there is a reason behind this decision. because 21th i start school. so sorry for any inconvience caused.. but anyway going yl house now tata XD

today's saturday

2006-09-16T04:32:00.000-07:00

hmm.. today is the sat. lol i played game until 8am sleep until 7pm and i woke up to blog lol.. cause i figure that this thing is telling me to.. update... update.. lol. while updating i went to eat chicken rice.. then pour the chilli all over the rice and its like yuck but tho i cant complain cause i cant cook anyway LOL. ( thank god for giving me some food to eat) lol thats the problem of staying alone ok ill cut the crap. then subconciously i forgotton that my hand is stained with chilli then i went to siew yun's blog cause i figure long time never see her so might as welll view her blog then lol. then i see halfway.. then SCRATCH MY EYE OMG!! LOL I ALMOST GOT BLIND ( no la.. i just cant open my eye lol) so siewyun ok lol i almost got blind just by missing you.( siew yun is my dearest sister btw ) hmm what else. tmr is my last day at genki. people there are good, especially the chefs( my best friends) lol and of course the servers (including the new ones) hmm.. since im quiting soon so anyone wanna come genki and have a lunch or 2 with me LOL speaking of that i didnt go genki and eat before offically .. so lol might as well. thats about it.
speaking of poem ... didnt write one since the last update so. its time to write something light to start with

The blind

The colours of the life,

shape of the life

expression of life has soon null to the void.

what would you do if that happens?

All the beautiful things you once had,

has gone into darkness.

God made it that way,

for you to face the challenge of facing the darkness

You are never alone

People around you guides you along with your journey with darkness.

Once you surpass darkness,

the courage , the sweat, the woes and all the other experience you had

paid off.

So never dispise the blind, it takes alot of courage to surpass darkness.

what happened today!

2006-09-06T04:55:00.000-07:00

nothing much today so im gonna post a new poem which is inspired by Delta Goodrem's Out of the Blue

Unfolding the New Chapter of life

A new begginning,

a new chapter of my life

Started on the day,

When i thought it could be my last.

Even though my eyes is shut tight,

but i hasn't give up on this world.

Just when i thought i will be walking on this road alone.

Out of the blue,

There i met you.

Showed me a life I can't see without you.

And so.. we will walk together and write the unwritten chapters of our lives

SENTOSA

2006-09-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

( sean lol molest guanyu and weijie JiGong and yes alfred. ultraman and wth nabil superman douglas and hafiz looks decent)
Yay.. off day! and to SENTOSA!! its suppose to be 10:30 and and it got delayed cause of someone i dont want to say name so i point * to douglas . HAHAHA lame. anyway we got to sentosa as w16d goes!. we met a group of cute people we named them ice box gang lol ( because they push around the ice box hahah) hmm is this some kind of fate or what. lol we travelled siloso beach earlier then met them afterwards O.o ok whatever. we played soccer and badminton and ya douglas and gang caught a SQUID ( ya its as small as a tadpole so i called it lol then douglas say i stuff it at your nose la tadpole lol) we crapped about it and so ya. Siti bought malay fried rice and Aqilah brought the nuggets and wedges ( hmm yummy) heh and also we built a sand castle!! heres the closeup

(SEAN AGAIN wtf lol and nabil HEY HEY PUBLIC OK! the rest looks normal now) this castle is made by all of us. ok time to blog about what i how i spend my 2 hours work in 3 mins lol ok.and ya there is this stall call the NewZealandNaturals wth rip off. lol a smoothie for 5.20 there goes my 1 hour pay T.T lol ok la i admit its not really bad la so ok la. then i bought the voda voda 0.5 for freaking dollars man!! WTH LOL EVENTS MANAGEMENT PLEASE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT HAHAHAA.
inmidst of playing with the water ( i placed my leg at the sand. trying very hard to leave my footprints behind but no matter how hard i try. it still got washed away)i learnt.. sometimes.. you really cant go against the nature. you have to accept the beauty of the nature as a fact of life ( as it leaves a nice path for people to walk for) and also. bring my own water to sentosa cause its freaking expensive LOL. ok i think thats about it. its poem time.

Life

no matter how hard life is meant to be,

accept it at all cost.

It may seem to be uneasy for you now.

but it is for the greater cause.

If you can think it at the bright side,

You will think life is worth its while.

So why not start today,

and think of all the things you do

and why you did it.

and understand how it will help you

that will really..

motivates your life

lol crap. that what i think about this life i had and how i motivate myself to work and do stuffs :)

cursed day

2006-09-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

what a pissing day. first i was late for work because of them. and so many fuked up customers today. ok second, i reach home listen to them. wtf 4:30 maybe im just paranoid yes im really paranoid. i got really pissed and didnt wanted to listen to anyone + that makes double trouble.The other me is calling me to chill chill and chill. but what a pissed man will do he will just dont listen to anyone even its valid. that makes me irresonable. but who the fuk cares. ill just up my bag and leave this forsaken place for good. this might be the first time i swear and being so not reasonable.i apologized for what i have done and that it makes me feels that why make more trouble for myself when i can just leave and start a new life. and also i regret for what i have done ( yes to make more trouble for myself. henceforth im hereby wash my hands over this forsaken shit) GAH PISSED STUPID DAY and i hate myself end.

sat

2006-09-02T06:16:00.000-07:00

yes this is the first sat i didnt work XD. i went to xing wei's house and rot basically is the same as staying at homelol. ok ill cut the crap and finally write a poem that i just thought of it. heh parden me if it sucks xD

My world

what do you think of alvin's life,

ever wonder whats into him and whats wrong with him.

his life is all about four walls and a computer screen.

Who sat beside him in rough times and told him where to go?

Nobody.

He was drifted apart from the reality slowly until he was afraid of speaking to people.

he was lost and became very quiet. Didnt wanted talk to anyone or about anything.

After 1 year, he met a special bunch of people called.. Friends.

They stood forth.. brought him back slowly to the reality.

They didnt dispise him and gave him hope..

In the process he learnt,

Life is not meant to be what he thinks as before.

He found his purpose thanks to his friends.
along the way he met many and made alot of friends.

And he will never forget these special people..
They will always be in his heart.

never be forgotton even his memory is bad

work home

2006-09-01T02:15:00.000-07:00

alrighty just came back from work. and also today very busy. cant think much and need sleep cause only meditate for 3 hours later the blog :)

2006-08-31T07:54:00.000-07:00

lol woot.. feeling bored and used photoshop and came out with this out of the random screenshots i took during i play in WoW lol. basically these screenshots i came up with a little real life story when i play in WoW lol how i grind.. lol and on the verge on reaching the cap lol -__-. lol you must be thinking i too much time to spare.. lol suddenly got the urge to do this so.. if graphics bad dont blame me

rest

2006-08-31T00:35:00.000-07:00

today is teacher's day eve. when i arrived there im kinda late. hmm met some of my friends and gone back to gsps and thats about it lol. the main point of this post is to clear my dilemma lol what happens if you keep on dreaming that same person over and over again-_- this is getting creepy i need to clear my doubt maybe i will find the answer next time. back to reading my psychological studies. bye xD

whoa

2006-08-28T08:07:00.000-07:00

basically today. i worked whole day so i blog about todays work then. today is my first day work full on monday. basically cool cause less people. what left me a deep impression is that the 4 springfield girls came to genki to celebrate one of the random person's bday la lol i was requested to place their cake in our fridge and i gladly la cause customer first i second LOL. they eat alot .. then kept the bday girl in dark. lol then ask for bill then i took the bill and asked "dont want your cake ah" at that time only 2 the other girl go toliet lalol. then opps i spoil the fun.. then lol they kinda jokingly act angry with me. the bday girl was unaware and i spoil the fun. lol i always do spoil. then i -__- went ot hide away and clear other table. then they request then i beg rio to handle them lol cause i dont dare to handle la cause that girl come back already. they ask me to the table for cake la. then of course i ask wen ting to help. then she show angry face then the girls all got scared. lol then the girls requested me again. then this time i have to walk there la -_- then they say eh why your supervisor so fierce. lol then they dont want play with me cause they scare wen ting dock my pay lol then of coz i then take the cake off the fridge and deliver to them. then wooho 3 oclock lol break time. then i go mac with rio. then when i came back they said "Eh i wanted to give you the cake one leh." lol then they left. and asked for my number jokingly and left. then 3 tables until around dinner time. busy liao then close shop at 10:30 wooho so early

Hero

2006-08-27T07:59:00.000-07:00

how sad :( my dearest sister siew yun gang with avanna to eat me up :( now i only left my head and my hand .they eaten my legs :( cause of red bean pancake :( RED BEAN PANCAKE > alvin WHAT AN EQUATION lol therefore alvin worth less than 1.80 lol. ok sorry for making you listening to all my crap lol. oh sad shit tmr full again.. the day next also full -__-- FULL lol ok la gnitelol

Genki

2006-08-27T02:20:00.000-07:00

woo just came back from work. everyone is nice as usual. no @#@@ked up customers lol.busy as hell. hmm what should i say.. basically i think working so fun. it kills my 'bored' away really fast. what should i say avanna said she will bite me to death what should i do but i think she dont bear to right? i seriously just cant think of any more poems to write for today as my head is hurting really bad. im sure tommorow will be a better day.so bored. genki seriously is a nice working environment cept that some of the customers is really impatient.ok fine there sucks lol. end.

Genki

2006-08-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

so tired after working XD .. really busy at genki. i think there will be a lot of complaints. lol anyway its time to reward myself. i bought this delicious expensive snack <> 2 for 1:80 what a rip off lol. this is how genki earn money anyway.today manager wth so many wrong orders, we wrong order one time he kpkb lol he wrong order keep quiet lol. sian la genki. anyway met alot of nice customers around very patient with me XD dont know why cheng so sway everytime meet alot of weird wierd customers. heres my reward!

i bet avanna must be yelling stupid alvin LOL.

and ya today got a weird full time shift cute girl call mei qian or something like that keep one grabbing my arm swinging like what lol tell me to bill. very weird man, cause people usually only ask me to bill then i go bill. this one is grab my arm swinging and make me damn giddy lol

anyway this is a fun working place except the stress part XD. as promised this will be the poem for the day i didnt know what to write so i write for my secondary school class

Ex2i

Ever wonder when's the last time we made our teacher cry,

Or having fun together?

Have you ever give a thought of why we stood and gazed at the sun as it faded to night?

to think of it, we do have something in common which is to have fun

We may be the most nasty class around( yes we do make teachers cry for not keeping up with their expectations)

We may not be the best in academic

or even the cleanest class( we are the most dirtiest class ever tissue paper around)

But what we do in common is the bond between people

the ties we treasure

the fun we been through

has resulted in such a strong chemical bonding

We may be seperated in different courses or even different polys

but i am sure our hearts stay as one

which is reunion.

i have prepared and waiting for.

this special day to arrive

which is the december meeting

where all of us will meet together

and also the last meeting for me to see you.

may that day be meaningful for you and me

hope that day will be a memorial one.

i may be there( london) but my heart will be with you.

alvin

Holiday starts

2006-08-25T03:34:00.000-07:00

hmm holiday finally started, but not for me XD i have decide to waste my time to work heh . anyway, kind of get an inspiration to write something out after standing there doing nothing while waiting for my bus ( i know i know so lame lol ) ok here goes anyway

Ignorance is bliss

Upon the surging tides of time,

For want of reason and of rhyme,

But where am i now?

Upon standing aimlessly waiting for the chance to appear,

pointless waiting and pending

For what reason? why am i still standing here?

Shouldn't i be creating my own chance?

Wouldn't i be a little happier at least i done?

Took my stride, waiting and waiting.

My thoughts are filled with uncertainty,

My blood has been spilled.

My flesh has been torn.

My Mind has been strained.

Still the chance hasn't arrive

how long more i have to endure?

And as the tides outrun the past,

My innocence is gone at last.

My twilight skies gone dim.

back to the old dark prison where i lived.

Maybe waiting is a bliss.

What you want may not be always what you think

steph

2006-08-24T07:59:00.000-07:00

okok steph you requested so i wrote this for you
but first let me blog about today LOL
basically i did nothing today. cause its holiday.
i watched naruto. and played warcraft iii and suprizingly i met someone at bnet studying in RP joining my clan today LOL AND ITS WEIRD lol what small world anyway peace -_- lol
Steph
I have a long life ahead of me

And i dont have to worry about time

Life is short and time dont sort

Thank God for knowing you
The darkest moment in my life

you shine your light to give me light

That’s the way life goes

I have to suffer,I have to rejoice

Have to shout at the top of my voice
Music as your passion

Trumpet as your profession

The melody you play bring joy to those whom listen
I can’t avoid a road ahead

Because this journey

I led will only lead to what i deserve

This journey will not be alone

we will share the path together and share the light.

Friends

2006-08-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

Poem FOR THE DAY :

WILL YOU EVER

I don't think you will

Ever fully understand

How you havetouched my life and made me who I am

I don't think you could ever know

Just how truly special you are

That even on the darkest nights

You are my brightest star

You've allowed me to experience something very hard to find Unconditional love that exists

In my body soul and mind

I don't think you could ever feel

All the love I have to give

And Im sure you will never realize

You've been my will to live

You are an amazing person

And without you I don't know where

I will be having you in my life

Completes and fulfills every part of me.

this is a poem about how a friend can impact deeply into people's life

its you who made what i am :)

Todays the last day of school

2006-08-23T05:22:00.000-07:00

class photo after the special 7th P lol too bad liu limin and teri tan not here
and so many people pon never pon yay im with the tshirt "MTV jackass" heh
and the one on the left is the after the Science lesson . Everyone like so happy because dont need present HAHAHAHA

ok this is what ah.. oh yea its Liulimiin last lesson T_T she is so good treat us all pizza (heng that day i never bring much money LOL so.. heng) see look like student right . she real life really small size so lol she often get privilege ( student treatment anything for student like road show she lol take the notepad). dont think her lesson slack slack one actually is must hiong one comapred to others.and also because of that, until now i still remember her module subjects(priacy,copyright,media literacy) WTH LOL

this day so heng SCIENCE LAST LESSON DIVIDE AND CONQUER

dont need present presentation . MY team just have to act like light particles nia hahahaha. what a day, go there sit act light particle get A liao lol

Today is also the last day of me being in W16d.Seriously enjoyed the stay with you all. Enjoy the following Sem .XD

This poem is delicated to W16d entitled

The Journey

A life of variety, changes in a scheme,

Of cause and effect, loss and hope,

Of beautiful people and suffering souls,

lost,Of kind people helping the weak,

Of children teaching the proud strong,

Even though, we got seperated

what i think what matters is the process.

I still remembered the first day i stepped ,

into this strange enviroment.

Everyone is confined into their own space.

After we walked together for this 16 weeks,

Everyone got opened their hearts ,

Open the room for W16d.

It is rather sad that our journey is going to end( WAIT IT ENDED)

Our spirits will still pervail as W16d.

Even our body isnt together,

but our hearts will stay as one

No sound, no sight,

so we think

Old thoughts: loud, repeated, outgrown,

Distracted again the Message unknown,

We try to listen; we hear not.

Next we will do what?

Some Random Poems i wrote for my friends

2006-08-22T23:32:00.000-07:00

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overture and over time.. time have pass beyond reach..
tears and pain have inflicted on my soul.

henceforth reasoning may not be true.

Maybe it will,maybe it wont..all i see is unease in me.
time will heal but how long it takes. you will never regret until you lost it.

maybe walking in the CrossRoad and decide my path.. once again.
Stabbed a million times in my soul. the burden.. the agony.. all gone through.all i know is to wait and wait..
waiting for the invention of time machine.. which will never come true..

The pain of wait is so true.

The journey towards will not end.. until it was told unfold truth.
im hereby end this thing and hope the mortal in me will end with this.

For Avanna

On my own, but mostly the savannah,

Where the tumbleweeds fade away and die

Before the glassy sun burns a summer of crystals,

The glistering waters of the high seas

Of which was so far a place as of where vultures roam.

I looked around and luckily you were there.

I was once lost, that you retrieved me from darkness that time.

You found your way as a chemist (weird)and grew your passion for it.

You did all you could as you would for it.

As a friend, you were always thereand always availiable.

Your presence will always bring light of hope to shine path

The journey we have crossed, the route we took made me learnt.. that you are a very good friend.

You will be there to share the calmness and woes and continue our journey of life

For Da Jie(xiaoyun)

In the world of demands,

you found your wayto live exciting and enrichingas for a designer,

you do what you love

continue to persist on what you dream

and turn a journey people dreadto inspiration.

as a sister,you did all you couldto fill life into the secluded life of mine

the display of patience and virtue,inspires me to fight :) ( right..)

as a friend,you were always thereand always availiable

your presence will always give peoplea warm feelingto feel safe.

we've travelled for thousands of mile,in the journey i learnt,

i see you clearly

in the trails of journey.and the journey goes on...

Walking in the beginning of life..

when everything is alien. i saw.

two personOne is Irysad(if you forgotton he is right below me now) the other is you.

Without knowing the purpose of living.. i was led into the classroom of unknown.

Chinese was the subject i dread...but luckily you were my classmate beside me ( wierd world huh)

You was my angel in disguise ( WOOT I CAN COPY CHINESEHOMEWORK :) i know i suck at chinese but still copy is a right option to do lol) ..

you shouldered all the work and without complains.

The display of graciousness and innocence surfaced.

From that very day, I never regretted knowing you as a friend..Hope the journey still continues as friends..

And it does not matter when,

When you need someone to talk to you,

Then I will always be your friend.

So, take my hand; let's face the world,Live each day- one day at a time!

i give up!

2006-08-22T09:04:00.000-07:00

blog is just not my thing but who cares. ill just come up with a new skin my own next time then LOL but anyway thanks for your help. Alright i wrote a testimonial for you all entitled friendship just incase anyone didnt receive it here it goes:

Friendship Last Forever

Basically, I know that you are all busy with all different things.

XD here is something kinda to cheer you up.

Even if you are busy, I will be here for you.

Even though, I cannot ease your aching heart,Nor take away your pain.

Please let me stay and hold your hand,And ill walk with you on this day!

ill lend you an ear if you need.

Ill wipe away your tears, share your fears, share your worries when they come

You are never alone, Im always near.

When you have trouble or feeling blue,All you have to do is call me,I am always around for you.

It doesn’t matter where I am or when is it.

If you need someone to talk to you.

Then ill always be your friend.

its not that i cheapskate mass testimonial is that i mean it XD to everyone of you so.. LOL be glad rather than complaining to me its mass send lol ps i really do mean it la :) trust me

hmm its finally.....

2006-08-22T08:37:00.000-07:00

done in a sense.. ARGG WHY I CANT PUT MY OWN PICTURE LOL i have been trying and trying and trying and trying but still to no avail.
hmm i guess ill try tommorow again then XD .anyway i did this ALONE LOL XD is it a pretty isnt it XD gnite tired.. lol bye

bleh

2006-08-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

Saw that. i made that as my blog skin but dont know how to edit the html code and make it my background:(
basically i got this idea from Soh EE Shaun and Ebuddy messenger :(
the background of the Book like building the blue blue thing is from soh ee shaun's doodle bunny and the main charc change from E buddy to A buddy XD lol and also msn messanger i think ill do more of my own background soon XD enjoy no poems for today lol

GOSH :p

2006-08-20T06:44:00.000-07:00

oh. Its my first post eh XD

Im completely alien with uh blog i guess today is a fine day after work
cant help thinking that the world is compressing me into bits and what to do i cant stop the the world from spinning. i guess... I'd miss my family i think o well back to the 4 walls and the virtual link which is the INTERNET xD luckily avanna told me this web so i can post all mythings in here .. Apprently i think i have straighten my thoughts .. hmm i think thats about it for today.. will do write more poems to kill time :) feel free drop me stuffs will be here for you